El nino is on!

Yes, EL NINO is on! It's on on you, my blogsite! Sad but true.

But hey! Dont worry weavedthoughts, just wait a little more time and I will again put entries for you. I already started a few but, you know, I am still half way on each topic. Nevertheless, I will definitely finish all those pending works for you. Hopefully, until next week.

Know what, I have been so disturbed lately. Well, its about things that really should'nt bother me at all. I am here not just to earn money but for "you-know-what". it blocks me still on what I have to accomplish- which is the most important of all. These blockers are also the reasons why I dont talk to you often for the last months. For your info, Its not only you that I have neglected, there are also some duties that I was not able to give a little attention, at least. These blockers came for reasons that I cannot anymore put across this entry, I will just whispher to you later if you promise that you can keep a secret.(LOL). This evil Satan is surely reading what I am writing now and he should'nt know what I have in my mind.

Since I was baptized, I have not experienced anything that affected and disturbed me and my duty so much, not until these things came. This time its different. But dont worry, friend. I am still ok. A prayer is enough to comfort myself. I am praying so hard that God may help and direct me to the best decision I need to execute. I know, He will hear me.

I donated blood today! (10-10-10)

Yes, you heard it right! I have given off one pint of blood today. After several times of attempting to donate blood, at last, this time I finally qualified- and I am so glad.

So here's what happened on my first time: While i was lying there, I got annoyed waiting for the attendant to check whether on which arm she'll take blood. Why will I not get annoyed, she checked on my veins not once but maybe almost five times! I also got a bit confused and nervous because the two guys behind me in the queue was already done and they are still checking on me! According to the attendant, my veins are too small so they really need to check very carefully. Anyway, it doesn't matter anymore now. When she finally injected the needle, luckily, it was successful at first try.

Actually, I was a bit scared, too. But as what i always do in circumstances that makes my heart beat 100x faster than the normal rate, I thought about something else to divert my attention. Since the Blood Donation Drive was one of the activities for our TV program's anniversary, I thought about how the program will run  later since the last time we had this kind of activity was a big blast, it was pretty cool and enjoy! Hmm, well guys that is another story I will tell on my next blog.I am just sharing what i have thought so I wont have a faint heart as they draw blood from me.

Kidding aside, the reason why I am so eager to donate blood is mainly because, my preachers have taught me to do so. Giving blood will save lives. More so, I am not rich. donating blood is a no-cash-out act of extending assistance to others in need. It made me realized too, that as long as a person wants to help, there will surely be a way.

In the midst of my less sleep-and-not-so-stress-free life, just a tablet of GNC mega women a day will be great help so I can be a donor again. I promise myself that I will treat again my soul with this good deed after a three months, God willing.

So long, guys!

And I hate myself…

Yes, I hate myself for becoming irresponsible with my duties lately.

Reason? I have been so busy and loaded with office work and really need to catch up with all pending jobs that the former person left. It’s all headache and pressure. However, that shouldn’t block me to do what I really ought to do. I know that. I should know what to prioritize. Honestly, I am really annoyed with my shortcomings. It hurts me, but…. Ok, ok. NO EXCUSES.

So today, I am taking this opportunity. I will start to eliminate my backlogs one by one- and have to finish it all today. You heard it right- today, God willing. I have already set my mood, you know. And because of that I have to strike the iron while it’s hot.

So get out of my way, blockers! c”,) I am on my way going back to loving myself again by doing what I am suppose to accomplish.

I hope and pray that my God be with me.

Why relationships fail...

Yes, I am being emotional this time. Not because my relationship is shaking. Of course not ;) This is because of this book I have been reading for days now. I have this book more than two years ago in a book sale and I have not touched it since then. And out of boredom at work, i brought this book with me and finally read it during my break. Its an old story of written by Danielle Steel and filmed around ten years ago but i was not able to see it or even had an idea of what the story was all about. But since I have read some Danielle Steel authored books and I find it good, I picked "Daddy".

Well, I am writing this blog not to praise the movie if it was done perfectly cinematic (I have not seen it, anyway) or the book amazingly composed. But a thought went across my mind: relationships fail because there is one person or both person in a relationship is just thinking about what will make them happy without thinking how the people around them would feel.

The story was about a mother that walked out from her family to give way to what she really wanted to do with her life. To make the long story short, the whole family was wrecked and devastated. And making it hard for Daddy to cope up. He was caught off-guard. He did not see this coming. It is really saddening that people sometimes are so aware that they are doing the wrong things to people they love so much, but because of "me-myself-and I" thinking, they become unreasonable. And do not even care about how it would impact on those that are involved.

This story is so common nowadays. If only people would find a way know that this is so against God's will, maybe they will do otherwise. If only people would know that it is not what we achieve in life that matters but how we live according to what God wants. Oh yes, if only.

I don't really know how to explain how I feel. All i know is,   "House and riches are the inheritance of fathers: and a prudent wife is from the LORD. Pro 19:14"

So wives and husbands, I hope we do our best to be considered "from God"

Want clear explanation about what message I want to say? Please watch the links below:

 Part 1.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3FgRqD5hVMM&feature=related

Part 2.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4HbO6IrM1EQ&feature=related

Part 3.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VBPwyitb1sA&feature=related

Part 4.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k2ROpNmQvOI&feature=related

An Open letter to God

As I was spending my breaktime surfing the net yesterday afternoon, I visited my old blogsite where I have not written any new entries for a year or two. I run through each and every entry and I found this open letter of mine- for my God.

Dear  God,

All these years, i’ve been through a lot.. so much happiness, so much anger, so much sadness… and through all that time You were always beside me.. . You have given me the best things that i could have… even now that im hurting so much, i still thank you, Lord…  it came to me as a surprise, i never thought that i will be one of those few people that will experience this and will have this with me until the day i die.. i maybe crying now, but i assure Dear God that i accept it whole-heartedly.. i will always bear in mind that "all things work together for good for those who love God, who are called according to his purpose" (romans 8:28-29).

Help me God… ease my pain… for whatever purpose, i thank You for giving this to me…

You are one great God that gives your children the best. thank for this another gift of love to me… Thank you for i will be stronger after this storm… 

Love,

Me

This entry was posted on Sunday, May 11th, 2008 at 11:18 pm  

I wrote this two years ago. While reading, I became a bit nostalgic. The memory flashed back to me. I remember how I was so silent when they broke the news to us. I tried my best not to burst in tears. At that moment, I need to show strength and courage- amidst circumstance, others will not accept with a smile. After reading, I examined myself. Yes, I don't feel the pain anymore. 100% painless. Thanks God. This letter have reminded me on the reason why I am here now in the place where I refused to stay before.  Since I am becoming restless again, itching to go back where I really wanted to be, now my mind has been cleared of cloudy thoughts. I am thankful to see this letter one more time.

At this very moment, I have realized that I am so very susceptible and has tendency to forget important promises when circumstance don't favor me. Human nature, that is why- maybe. But I have forgotten that I don't have any rationale to use to defend what I want. God has plans for me, and all that happens is what He allows. 

From our last International Thanksgiving, we have learned that a true Christian will surely have a happy ending.

And happy endings are reserved for those that will endure the tribulations, trials, mockery and humilliations this world is giving. That is from this harsh world we live in. What more if I can withstand the seems-to-be-failures-and-heartaches that God is giving to me? Well, the choice is always mine. And I am choosing to be obedient- to best way I can. Help me God, I cant do this alone.

..... I love happy ending.
..... I want happy ending. 
..... I look forward to happy ending.